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Work. Work. Work.

My body is in my station but my mind is flying somewhere else.





My COVID-19 Journey




January 2, 2022 Temp 36.3 °C

It all started Sunday night, around 11:00 PM when I started to feel cold. I woke up in the middle of the night to turn off the air-con. I thought it was just because of it. After a few hours the chilling never stopped and started to feel dryness and itching in my throat.

January 3, 2022 Temp 36.6 °C

Monday morning comes and I woke up feeling so tired. I can feel fatigue in my entire body particularly at my back. I feel bit dizzy and my head feels heavy. I dropped by a fast food to have breakfast and hot coffee. I jog for a bit and as I sweat it made me feel better. I went to bed around noon since I still have work at night. As the sun goes down and the wind started to get cold again, I started to feel feverish feeling again. When I woke up, the soar throat got worst. I had trouble eating or even by just drinking liquid. I have to call off for work since I’m having trouble speaking due the soreness of my throat. I took paracetamol and went back to bed.

January 4, 2022 Temp 36.5 °C

Tuesday morning I woke up early to have my consultation. I went to Qualimed to have myself checked and for me to be able to secure a medical certificate for my absence at work. I was diagnose with Acute Tonsillopharyngitis, Since I’m showing COVID-19 symptoms It made me a COVID suspect right away. I was advise to rest and have my RT-PCR after 5 days. Antibiotics and some medicines have been prescribed to help me manage my symptoms. I also started my self quarantine to prevent the spread of the virus in case I turned out to be positive with COVID-19.

January 5, 2022 Temp 35.6 °C

Spent the entire day resting. As far as the symptoms goes, the feverish feeling is gone. I have minimal headache and soar throat also have improved. Aside from the prescribed medicines, I also double the dosage of my vitamins.

January 6, 2022 Temp 35.4 °C

I woke up feeling better. No fever, no headache and fatigues. Just had minimal itchiness of throat and runny nose which resulted to coughing.

January 7, 2022 Temp 35.5 °C

Always feel thirsty with minimal itchiness of throat which resulted to random coughing. I went back to Qualimed to have my RT-PCR test but they already reached their cut-off when I arrived so I decided to just go home and come back the following day. It turns out they only have capacity of 60 patients for those who have symptoms.

January 8, 2022 Temp 35.5 °C

Still always feel thirsty with minimal itchiness of throat which resulted to random coughing. I went back to Qualimed but then again they already reached their cut-off. I decided to go to different hospital to see if there’s still available slot for RT-PCR. Luckily, I found one at Brigido General Hospital. After waiting for the approval of my HMO, I finally for swabbed. After the extraction, I was advised that result will be within 24-72 hours. I also requested to have the result be sent to me via email.

January 9, 2022 Temp 35.4 °C

I have continued my self quarantine. The dryness in my throat and the feeling of being thirsty still the same.

January 10, 2022 Temp 35.5 °C

I have continued my self quarantine. The dryness in my throat and the feeling of being thirsty still the same.

January 11, 2022 Isolation Day 1 35.5 °C

It has been more than 72 hours and I still haven’t received any email about the result of my RT-PCR test so I decided to pick up the result personally from the hospital. They printed the result and it turns out that there’s already result as of January 9, 2022. Unfortunately, the result was positive. I was not surprised, yet it feels good to confirm my suspicion so I would know what to do next. This sets as the first day of my self isolation. I decided to just stay at home since I have very minimal symptoms. I made sure that my personal utensils and things are separate from everyone in the house. We sanitized ant thing that I touch and use. I started to wear facemask even when I’m at home whenever there is a need for me to go out of my room. I’m basically locked in my room the whole day. I just made sure that there is enough ventilation to make sure that the air is properly flowing.

January 12, 2022 Isolation Day 2 35.5 °C

I woke up perfectly fine today except the itchiness in my throat won't leave me and it woke me up. I just drink warm water and hot coffee to relieve the itchiness. Gargling with Betadine Gargle also helps.

January 13, 2022 Isolation Day 3 Temp : 35.6 °C

Work up perfectly normal today at around 5:25 AM with random cough and itchy throat. I took Difflam Forte (Benzydamine hydrochloride) and it helps me to ease the itchiness in my throat. Fighting COVID-19 is not just a physical battle but it really more on mental health. The isolation sometimes make you feel insane. You can’t work. I can’t go outside. I can’t even just go out of my room. It bores the hell out of you and it’s really a great struggle. Plus it makes you feel very anxious about everything.

January 14, 2022 Isolation Day 4 Temp : 35.6 °C


All symptoms are gone except my tonsils feels swollen during late afternoon (around 4:00pm - 6:00pm). Drinking warm water help.

January 15, 2022 Isolation Day 5 Temp : 35.9 °C


All symptoms are gone except my tonsils feels swollen during late afternoon (around 4:00pm - 6:00pm). Drinking warm water help.

January 16, 2022 Isolation Day 6 Temp : 36.4 °C

All symptoms are gone except my tonsils feels swollen during late afternoon (around 4:00pm - 6:00pm). Drinking warm water help.

January 17, 2022 Isolation Day 7 Temp : 36.1 °C


All symptoms are gone. I was able to finally able to contact City health office and my case was finally reported.

January 18, 2022 Temp : 36.1 °C

All symptoms are gone.

January 19, 2022 Temp : 36.1 °C

All symptoms are gone.

January 20, 2022 Temp : 36.1 °C

All symptoms are gone. I have made multiple call to our baranggay since they haven’t sent my Medical certificate yet. Someone finally called be to confirm that they have received the documents that I sent them.

January 21, 2022 Temp : 36.1 °C

I am finally cleared. Early morning today when I checked on my email I finally received the medical certificate issued by the city health office.







Sometimes all we need is a good cup of coffee to brightens up a gloomy day.

Sometimes all we need is a good cup of coffee to brightens up a gloomy day. 






Blithethoughts on "The Me You Can't See"


The Me You Can't See is an American documentary series on mental health streaming on Apple TV+, and hosted by Oprah Winfrey and Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex. 

The show features real people, famous or not with real struggles. Real problems and how they continuously fight their battle everyday.

The documentary will help you open your eyes that mental health is a serious issue. Mental health issues can make or break a person. We came from different paths and crossroads. We have different life experiences. We felt different kinds of emotions. We got mad, We got angry. We felt pain. We got frightened and anxious but no matter what you feel, those feelings  are valid. You are valid. Regardless of your social status, financial capacity, gender, ethnicity or religion. Everyone of us have our own struggles and unique situation. However, you are not alone. 

This is were family, friends and even mental health professionals have a crucial part. It is very important that we are able to open up and talk about our struggles and challenges. We have to talk it out. We don't need someone to tell us what to do. Sometimes we only need someone who is willing to listen with no judgment.

It's okay to cry.
It's okay not to be okay.
Just remember that your feelings are valid.
You are valid.
You not alone.
There is someone in there who can really see the real you.


This is not a sponsored post but I know that this documentary is very helpful.










Bad Shape




It has been more than a year since the lockdown has started. I wasn’t able to post anything since I felt like nothing is going on with my life. I felt that I am a zombie. I am breathing but barely living. A lot of things are running into my mind no matter how hard I tried to shut it down, it just won’t stop. I’m waking up everyday with no direction, no motivation and most of all no purpose. Admittedly my state of mind is in bad shape. I felt like drowning. Everyday waking become a struggle. Sometimes I just don’t want to wake up anymore and remain in an endless dream.





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Blithe Words 2020 : Hope

It's when the darkest when a candle shines the brighttest.
The stars looks more splendid in the deep of the night.


Hope is when you wake up in the morning with the warm sunshine kisses your cheeks. It is when the rainbow appears after the heavens cried. It is there as the roses starts to bud and bloom. It's there when an infant takes It's first step. There is hope when you first taste the sweet lips of your one true love.

Life give us difficult challenges and tought times sometimes breaks us but hope push us to strive and move forward. It fuels us to get in our feet  and conquer our dreams. It tells us that there is life after a storm. It reminds us that there's happy ever after even if fairytales isn't real. It teach us to look forward for the fruit of our labor. It help us enjoy the taste of our sweet victories after our better pasts. 


Hope is intangible but a vigorous powerful force that can help us make our dreams into reality. Even in the lowest point of our lives we can still bounce back with flying colors.

Blithe Words 2020 : Grateful


This has been a tough year. We faced a lot of natural calamities as mother nature made us taste her power. Then the pandemic reached us and paralyzed the world. A lot of people lost their jobs, families left in hunger and lives ended. A lot of heroes didn't made this far. As strong storms hit us a lot of  livelihood were torn apart and houses were drown in flood. As part of our nature our first reaction is to feel frightened. We question God why is this all happening. Then we complain, rant and find someone to blame. We've been is quarantine for a very long time. No matter how strong we are, whether we accept it or not, our mental health is affected. We felt sadness, some even resulted to anxiety and depression.

After all these devastating series of events is there really anything left to be thankful for. I myself is questioning, why am I still alive? The fact that I was able to right this post is one proof why I should be grateful.


I am grateful that I can still wake up every morning with the strength to cary on. I wake up everyday knowing that my family is in good health and in a better situation than the others. I'm grateful that I still have a job and able to provide for my family. I may not be in perfect health but I'm more than capable to accomplish things  thats needs to be done. I don't have a lot of friends but I'm surrounded with people good enough to care if I am okay. The world might be  covered with dispare but there will always be a reason to smile and be happy. Blessings comes in simpliest form that we neglect most of the time. We keep looking around and failed to see the things that really matters. Let's focus our sight on what really matters then you will realize that there's a lot out there that we should be grateful for. 

#BlitheWords2020

Joker (2019 film)





Joker is a 2019 American psychological thriller film. based on DC Comics characters, stars Joaquin Phoenix as the Joker. It is about a mentally ill failed stand-up comedian who turns to a life of crime and chaos in Gotham City.

Plot

In 1981, Arthur Fleck works as a clown-for-hire and lives with his mother, Penny, in Gotham City. The city is collapsing under unemployment, crime, and financial ruin, leaving segments of the population disenfranchised and impoverished. Arthur suffers from a neurological disorder that causes him to laugh at inappropriate times, and regularly visits a social services worker to obtain medication. After a group of street kids attack him in an alley, Arthur's co-worker, Randall, loans him a gun for protection. Arthur also meets Sophie, a single mother who lives in a neighboring apartment, and invites her to his stand-up comedy routine.

While entertaining at a children's hospital, Arthur's gun falls out of his pocket. Arthur is fired for this infraction; Randall lies that Arthur bought the gun himself. During a ride home on the subway, Arthur is beaten by three drunken Wayne Enterprises businessmen before he shoots two of them in self-defense and executes the remaining one. The murders unintentionally start a protest movement against Gotham's rich, with protesters donning clown masks in the unidentified killer's image. Arthur later learns that funding cuts are shuttering the social service program, leaving him without access to his medication.

That night, Sophie attends Arthur's stand-up comedy routine, which goes poorly; he laughs uncontrollably and has difficulty delivering his jokes. A popular talk show host, Murray Franklin, mocks Arthur by showing clips from the routine on his show. Arthur later intercepts a letter written by Penny to local billionaire and mayoral candidate Thomas Wayne, alleging that he is Thomas's illegitimate son, and berates his mother for hiding the truth. Arthur goes to Wayne Manor for answers, where he meets Thomas's son, Bruce. After a scuffle with Alfred Pennyworth, the family butler, Arthur flees. Shortly after a visit from two Gotham City Police Department detectives investigating Arthur's involvement in the train murders, Penny falls ill and is hospitalized.

At a public event, Arthur confronts Thomas, who tells him that Penny is mentally unstable and not his biological mother. In denial, Arthur visits Arkham State Hospital and steals Penny's case file, discovering that he was adopted after being abandoned as a baby and that Penny was neglectful, allowing her boyfriend to physically abuse Arthur as a child, causing serious head trauma. Distraught, Arthur goes to the hospital and kills his mother before returning home and entering Sophie's apartment unannounced. Frightened, Sophie tells him to leave; it is revealed that their previous encounters were part of Arthur's delusions.

Arthur is invited to make a guest appearance on Murray's show due to the unexpected popularity of his routine clips. As he puts on his makeup and outfit, he is visited by his former co-workers Gary and Randall. Arthur murders Randall but leaves Gary unharmed for treating Arthur well in the past. En route to the studio, Arthur is pursued by the two detectives onto a train filled with clown protesters. One of the detectives accidentally shoots a protester and incites a riot while Arthur escapes in the chaos.

Before the show goes live, Arthur requests that Murray introduce him as "Joker", a reference to Murray's previous mockery. Arthur comes out to a warm reception, but begins telling morbid jokes, admits that he killed the men on the train and rants about how society abandoned and mocked him. Arthur then kills Murray before being arrested.

Riots break out across Gotham. One of the rioters corners the Wayne family in an alley and murders Thomas and his wife Martha, sparing a traumatized Bruce. Meanwhile, a group of rioters in an ambulance crash into the police car carrying Arthur and free him. Arthur is hailed as a hero by the crowd and dances to their cheers.

Arthur is recaptured and incarcerated in an asylum. Laughing to himself, his psychiatrist asks him to tell her the joke; he replies that she would not understand. Arthur is then chased through the halls by the orderlies, leaving a trail of bloodied footprints behind him.

Blithethoughts


Joker is brutal, dark and a convincing origin story of a man's painful journey to self destruction. It is difficult to watch however at the same time it is impossible to take your eyes off him.

What happens when a broken person is immersed in a broken environment.? This is the question brilliantly asked by Joker.

This film must be watch with an open mind. It is disturbing brutal dark and intense, yet brilliantly craftted and courageous portrayal of someone who loses everything but somehow wins most victoriously - at least, in his mind.  This is a good origin story of a man's painful journey to self destruction.

The film will not entertain you but it will open your eyes about mental illness. How it can turn a good man into monster. The movie also showed reality of life on how other people has a big impact in someone life. In every hurtful words that we say or mean action that we do, we might be crafting a demon from a good person that no one understands.

The movie is unpleasant  it makes you wonder if there's any good left in the world.  When the film is over, you will find yourself fully invested and ready to watch his journey continue if there's ever another one.

Todd Phillips and Joaquin Phoenix did a great job in re-imagining Joker, one of the most iconic villains in cinema history

As an origin story it showed us what drove the man down the path we know he has to eventually tread. We saw the effects it has on the man himself.

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